We're chained.

I have watched a many tv series in my life.
Only one ever affected me, though.

Californication.
Not only it has absolutely astonishing soundtrack,
it taught me one thing.
"At the end of the day, it's all about her".

And I ain't calling it a day yet.
I don't even know who she is.
But I'm certain about who she's not, now.
That's a moving on.

I  had my illusions.
They were lovely, innocent.
But they were still only illusions.
I thought I like.
I don't know, maybe I still do, a little.
Or more,
but I know, it is not real.
it won't ever be.
For the good and bad.

I've been trying to find you,
you.
You, who are not reading this.
You, who may or may not exist.

Do you call this one of my desperation times?
Don't.
It feels...
...strangely,
Oh, so strangely.
But strange is not bad, is it?

No it's not.

You, we're chained, you.