The taste is bittersweet

After my overjoy yesterday evening the reality stroke me, when I learned more about the trip to US.

My father told me few months ago he won't pay for this trip of mine.
However, he said he'll ask around in his job if they couldn't arrange it somehow. Their company is based in US after all.

Now this trip to Atlanta for half year I have been promised to is obviously what the company put together.
Little did I know, though, that they were to start a plan to educate "future of [company name]" which is basically kids of their employees. And I am, so to say, a testing subject.

Now I can't help but think; who is going to get most out of this thing; who is it aimed for? Me, my father, or the company?

It oughtta improve my father's standing in the company.
The company will become more attractive for potential employees and they'll fulfill one of their goals - education. You know how most of corporations have some kind of values they pursuit? Yeah, this exactly.
And I...I seem to be nothing but a test subject. I will have no ground to build on, I'll have to bash my head through everything in the way. And act exemplary during so.

And I don't want to spend half year, especially one I was hoping for and looking forward to so much, merely representing some corporations interests.
Neither I want to owe them something. Just the worktitle of the program...future of the company? I have no intention of ever working there and I am absolutely clear about that. Don't want to be obliged to do anything for them.
I don't even want to be an exemplary case. My actions are not exemplary according to most peoples', especially not Americans. I just do what I deem best, not trying to be understood by all.

This is a great opportunity for me, but I feel kind of conflicted, because in the back of my head I get this tingly sense of being exploited to reach someone else's goals. And hell, that is an awful idea. Plus from what I know about myself, it's likely if this actually appeared true, I'd sabotage those goals and be blamed afterwards rather, than to just serve as a tool to someone I don't respect and don't wish to be working for.

Dammit, this won't even let me sleep.