It is impossible to life your life without disappointing someone you love.
So it's all about preferences.
A wonderful example: I once stayed the next day after a house party to help clean the house. And when I came home, my father kept shouting on me, yelling that "I was sleeping out my hangover".
It is unfair.
But I am happy I helped. It was fun. And yes, I did have a monstrous hangover. But I certainly didn't sleep there.
And if you're maybe even close to satisfying everyone around you, you may never satisfy yourself.
And eventually, your illusion of living surrounded by true love and love only will break and the little shattered pieces will stab right into your little soul.
I certainly must seem like a terrible son right now.
And it saddens me.
Yet, I can't be everything.
Can I?
I guess I could try harder.
If I kept my shit together.
Breaking down is easy.
And I like challenges.
Even though I often lose.
I'm only happy when it rains,
I only smile when it's complicated.
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