Srsly, guys?

Do you just write some stupid shit on your facebook and people start writing comments and liking it like crazy?
Does it really work that way?

So dumb.



Things are so dull lately.
There is barely any rest, anything fun to do.

So don't take away the rest of my joy.
Which is obviously exactly what SOMEONE tries to do.
Rather successfully.

In times like these, I just buy me a pack of cigarettes.
But now I don't even have the damn money for one damn pack.
So I guess a no-smoking time is coming.
It never been a problem for me to just "stop" smoking.
For certain reason.
But I always went back to it, after the imminent danger passed away.
By danger meaning either getting caught by parents or a personal bankrupt.
This looks so selfish and pretentious written down.
It's much more complicated in fact.
But it would be foolish to even try to explain what is going trough my mind right now, since I am not really keeping my shit together.

This year is intense.
When I was smaller, I used to cry because of school, because of parents.
I did so very often, it meant little.

But when I cry now, there's gotta be something seriously wrong.
And today shall be counted as the 3rd "shit-is-gonna-hit-the-fan-check". Since September.

Sometimes I wish I just grew wings and flied away.
Or have a pair of arms to hug me.
Other than mine, obviously.