Cruel mornings.

Ok.
So,
when I woke up today, I thought to myself: "this is going to be a pretty shitty day".
Twas at first.
Twas at second as well.
But on third, It turned on to be a cool day.

There are 2 types of hangover.
-The apathic "oh, fuck, I'm not drinking EVER again".
-The "oh, fuck, yesterday was cool, but my head hurts like hell. But, hey, I had/I'm having a great time, right?"

I was streaming through my song library. I've dug really deep to find all of my forgotten treasures.
And I was particularly enchanted by Shirley Manson's line "Breaking down is easy" (Garbage - I think I'm paranoid).
It gives a new perspective. And that is, what life is about. Maybe keeping your head up really is worth trying.
Maybe cheerful people have better lives.
Probably not though.
I'm not a cheerful person, at least on the inside not, yet I may seem cheerful.
And I have a great life.
A great outlook to future.
And great teenage years at the same time. Who can say that?

Recently, someone told me "Most of girls say, I am not like most of girls".
I have given it a thourough thought.
And I figured out, that there actually isn't most of girls.
Every girl is different.
At least here, in my surrounding they are.
Not so educated in american stereotypes, so I have no idea how it goes there.

Living here is so different from living in US. Better I think. But I'd like to go to US for longer time. I've been there only once, for 3 weeks.
And my school offers educational trips to best american private high schools.
So a year in Wisconsin would be a nice thing, I guess.
A very valuable experience.
I mean, who lived a year in a different country? Especially when they were 17...

Oh yes, and I'm beginning to be a quite good dancer.
And a good guitar player.
A fast learner, I am.
Things seem to be working out fairly nice.
Except for money. I don't have any at all.
There are about 2.5 dollars on my bank account. (45 CZK, 1 USD = 17 CZK.