Sorting my thoughts

Did you know, that dreams are just sorting your thoughts, like when you're rewinding an old VRC?
Sometimes, you have to do so, when you're awake too.
What do you do with life?
It's one in the morning. I had awfully not enough of sleep recently, and I could go to sweet surrender of sleep hours ago, but here I am, lying in my bed with my laptop.
Today I first tasted clean water after week of drinking only vodka, rum and coffee.
It's refreshing. But boring.
Don't do boring stuff.
It doesn't make sense, doesn't give you anything in life.
I'm thinking playing TF2.
Oh god, I hate that game. But I don't wanna go to sleep and it would keep me awake for sure.
Parov Stelar are having a concert in my town!
But it's sold out...

My french exchange student is coming this thursday.
It seems he's only coming, because beer is cheaper here, than in France.
Fuck. What will I do with him, when I can't handle even myself while drinking?
Now I'm sitting here and thinking what to write next.
My friend who moved to Slovakia recently is back in here for the weekend, but we can't meet cause neither of us has time to.
Why is nothing going out well nowadays?

I'm quite alone. Need someone willing to listen to my voice, when I call them in the middle of the night.
But I don't have such a special person. Now don't take me wrong - I'm no asocial loser.
But I'm more of a friend kinda guy, than a boyfriend kinda guy.
God, how that pisses me off.

I'll go and get myself a tea. Pu-erh yetti, special chinese blend, twice fermented, my favorite.
One of the few things in life, that smell better, than they taste.
Can't stand those paperbag wannabe teas. Bleergh!

Sorry if I don't make sense, or make mistakes. I'm tttt - (too tired to think).
God, that sounds good. tttt.
I guess I'll use it from now on.

By the way, I just saw absolutely mindfucking amazing short movie now.
Here it is: http://vimeo.com/13780892
It really does give things new perspective.
[spoiler alert] when in usual children story 3 "bad" guys die, it is not so horrible.
But when they found a real, solid, cold body...
It is just so macabre.
Like H.P. Lovecraft's stories - go and read some, now!
But first, listen to this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yUsnEjlL9x4&feature=related
They say no one sane listens to classical music.
Fuck.

Good night, darklings.
(btw read shirley mansons facebook notes. shes got more life experience, than I can even imagine.)