Primates after all...

Primal nature of us, humans is very simple. And very limiting.
We can only ever hope to overcome it.
But don't go becoming Buddhist priests yet!
They got it all wrong.

What separates us, humans from animals are complicated feelings, often unexplicable by logical means.
Those stop us from progress, but they make our lives worth living.
There's no point in abandoning your needs. Eat how much you want, shit how much you want, these are routines we need, so I don't see why should we neglect them - why would you starve yourself, if you can eat?

The true spiritual enlightement is actually hidden behind feelings such as faith, trust, love.
And in few more for which there are no words.
Like when you finish reading a book or watching a movie and you say to yourself "fuuuuck".
The moments of cheer bliss when your whole body shivers because of something intense.
The trances in which you forget all your fears or dreams and just live the moment focused on one thing and one thing only.

And sometimes, if you really care about someone, you have to give them up.
For they simply might not be happy with you.
You want them to smile and be happy.
And you know you cannot give them that.

OR maybe, I'm just scared shitless.
I feel like I might fuck it up.
And I really do fuck up lots of things, but I my trouble solving experiences always help me up on my feet.
But it's not really about me, is it?
It's about her.
It's always been about her.
Cause in the end, what can I have more than her?
There's only one thing: I can have the warm feeling I did the right thing for her to be happy.

I have absolutely none selfish intentions.
I just want to sacrifice my happiness for happiness of her, who I love more than myself.
I don't know why would I do that; it doesn't make any logical sense.
But I'm proud of it.